ch.5

Not everybody can stay in the same place forever. Some do.

Too many cooks in the kitchen ruins the dish.

There's nothing like the first sip of spearmint tea.

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Seriously Misunderstood Creatures:

UFOs. Aliens. Flying saucers. Mothers hips. Rockets. Aerial phenomena. CE-5.

Some people believe in reincarnation. Some people believe in superstition. Some people believe in aliens. Some people believe is starseeds, lightworkers, indigo, rainbow, and crystal children, lemuria, Atlantis, nebiru, magic, beasts, monsters, fairies, legends, lore, myth, gods, goddesses, monotheism, nirvana, enlightenment, and more. I think the more one believes in, the richer the soul.

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Is this a good start. You know those people that need a lead. You have to give them a clue. They need a thread to pull on...

Seamlessly, the loom weaves illusions.

Fool my eyes.

What do I believe in now.

That's an existential crisis.

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Legend has it, the phoenix is born to spontaneously combust into fire and ash and rebirth itself out of said ashes and individually rise to overcome the past of ancient pain.

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Is this now, now?

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One time as a teen I had a chocolat chaud with my French teacher and a prince. Madame Huvos and we three had a practical exam. Context.

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20 or so years ago.

How time flies.

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Shouldn't my memoir be about myself? See how everyone always makes it about themselves. Psychologists say that people that interrupt are verbally abusive to manipulate and control the conversation. Forensics and abusive specialists agree that that is what murderers do. They want to control the narrative and further their agenda to avoid suspicion.

I knew when I was young, I was too green.

People have wanted books from me. They have wanted to write books with me. Isn't that weird and oddly convenient for them? What's in it for me to allow you to control my narrative and dictate my life while they try to interweave themselves into blank chunks of time - there was no love.

I am a representative of the Mineral Kingdom. Rocks and stones and crystals lack mouths and verbal language to speak to humans in their language. That is their nature. Some rock. Some rule. So it goes...

I self identify as a mystical creature. Often, misunderstood. Gravely.

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It's called terse.

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Am i showing my age?

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I don't like when they refer to me as tragic.

That is not my image. That is their abuse and murder. You are trying to project your self issues onto me as a scapegoat like a jew. That is part of government entrapment and the shadow government that aids the deep state crime and underworld. The cults have cultural beliefs and rituals like religious groups and other marginalized closed peoples. Their vibe is their tribe. They do sex, crime, and magic together for congressional agendas for profit and public persona clout to siphon power and hide their secrets and true selves in pursuit of desire. You get them addicted to pleasure. You leverage them for power. The keepers find them, first...

I do not know why they all lie.

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Jealousy was personified as a snake or serpent or belly slitherer in the Bible.

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Temptation is a beast of burden. Clearly, men are easily seduced and not very bright. Others say, Lilith was his first real, fake wife, and he felt emasculated: because she went on top of him and took his power. So, he asked God for a different one that was milder and accepted missionary. He wanted an obedient one. One weaker and stupider. Please, him.

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Emotional manipulation is the easiest way to control people and lie. Women have been doing it since ancient history. Well, you just comfort them...

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My spiritual journey has been quite a trip. Not everybody gets a ton of press and scandal and a government raid with aliens and fiancees and music and celebrities and an adopted family cleansing. It was a lot, my Saturn Return. Men would say I need a lawyer. 

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Being spiritually awakened and conscious is a beautiful and raw experience of unfurling of oneself in full light and purity. Completely naked before the world and God. Spiritual union of the twin flames within oneself. I am a being of the divine violet fire. I am the purity God desires. St. Germain. 

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You know - I made promises to myself.

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I made promises to myself in this life time, and I accomplished all of them and are continuing to succeed by virtue of pure will and God's chosen favor. Every life path is different. Numerology is a whole study. Astrology has been one of my passions since childhood. I have studied and read and paid for readings of the tarot and oracle assortment since I was 21. I got my first angel deck at Grandma and Grandpa's 50th wedding dinner. When I was born, I was a special child. The adults were scared of me, and I knew I was born for so much more than the average human. I was an odd child and precocious. My journey, life path, and lifestyle has blazed the way for many, many souls all over the world. I am a channel to the Ascended Masters and angels. I am a medium and the dead talk to me. I have always been inuitively gifted to the extent where people tell me plainly and directly. It got to such a point that I felt like I was going crazy. I'm a sensitive multi-empath with sensory synesthesia among other spiritual gifts and blessings from my ancestors and the ones that walked before me. 

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It's meant so much to my heart to be able to come to Jesus in my life review and Saturn Return bridge of adulthood and womanhood. I am so grateful to all of my ancestors, angels, starseeds, guides, and all life forms that communicate with me to relay that to you. I am so grateful for my life, career, and baby girl, Cali. Sometimes, life is about the love you give yourself and the world.