ch.2

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You know when all of the people think that it’s time for AI. They all want to do with drugs with me. Have you ever done drugs? Have you ever been invited to a young party? Were you popular? Have you ever been peer pressured into drinking? Forced to do drugs? What if you were roofied or poisoned? 

 

I am my own laboratory. The body is a building. 

 

All over the world, people do drugs. People are doing drugs right now. People always talk about money and how they want sex, but they don’t get to the nitty gritty of it all - it’s about drugs. Drugs. Drugs. Drugs. 

 

Pharmaceuticals. 

 

Medicines.

 

Drug Stores. 

 

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I don’t believe in carpet. They all like to lie. Why so many twists and turns?

 

Far be it from me or anyone, really, for that matter to ever say anything about anything. That’s what it’s like to be someone like me. Someone that you’ll never see - that you’re not supposed to see… for reasons beyond the norm. Some people listen to Neo, because they think guidance is in language from a person in their physical space. 

 

Things have become less real or more unreal and less believable. What is like TV. What is like a show. What is like a movie. Why. Everyone wants that. Why. People get so personal over media. I blame it on the American Dream from the 1920s-1990. That’s where they all messed it up and are still to blame. They just do a bunch of shuffle the cups and flip the it upside down and suppress and oppress and stall and complicate and avoid and compound and transfer and cover it up and bury it, etc. and so on. 

 

I don’t think anyone knows what the Devil or Satan really is - as a whole thing. Do you demonize demons. Do you glorify - what exactly. What do you think you and why. That’s what you want for what. Lucifer was vain and speaks to the lower beast in animals of the human species. It’s easier to go down. You don’t have to go against gravity. You just continue to sink and decay and rot over time until you disintegrate into a mound of dust. Visions of grandeur. Narcissism. Napoleon syndrome. Yeah, whatever you want to tell yourself to get through another day for what and why other than the human lifespan has been extended for no real good reason and clearly doesn’t function realistically or practically in the real world of reality. 

 

Some people spend their entire lives running from themselves toward things. They think that will do something. It doesn’t. They just get worse and futher wrapped up in the web of lies and deeper into a pit of finality, fate, and facades. Does it feel better on that side. I am not convinced. Is it all it’s cracked up to be. Do you even care about anything. Some people don’t value themselves. They just decide to resign to the system to run through their empty days. 

 

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There’s too much heavy and dense - I get bored of myself. I get bored of other people. 

 

What if you just stopped doing anything. What if someone stopped you from doing everything. Does that exist. Why would someone do that. What does self-sacrifice really mean. Are you sure that you’re American. How would you know. What are you even looking for. Why do you think you’re here. Are you just an accidental orgasm. Are you a mistake. Are you wanted. Are you planned. Were you a difficult birth. Did you come out right. Are women just breeding bags. What is the point of a man. If women were meant to work, why do they habe babies. 

 

Nobody ever forgets me. How could they. Have you been outside. People are terrible out there. 

 

If you can say alot with less words, what does that mean. Do you believe what you see. Do you see what you believe. Do you fool others. Do you lie to yourself. Who are you without other people. If I started a secret place and put people there, how would you know. 

 

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They say that before you’re born - before you incarnate - you have a life blueprint and you sign it. Forgery is a crime. One person, one fingerprint. Cloning is unethical. Design babies aren’t real, so abuse isn’t real. It’s unnatural. Little of nature is left natural. Have you heard of Rachel Carson. Silver Springs. Palm Springs. Silver Lake. Silver Bells. Sylvan woods. Pennsylvania. Transylvania. Vampires. Voodoo. Blood. Red. Louisiana. Red sticks. Magic. Lines. Circles. 

 

A lot of people are Amish in Pennsylvania and Ohio. That’s a little known secret. Black people move to Ohio now. I’m not sure why, but they do. That’s a way of life. They are set in their ways. Who knows what goes on there. It’s always creepy. Bizarre Vibes. Mushroom farms. 

 

Ya’ll know better… No excuses. 

 

The Devils always make houses of sticks with skull bones. It looks like a weird raptor vulture made a feeding pit in a random nook of the woods and indulged. They left no remorse. 

 

I would rather not go camping. I would rather not be a nudist. I would rather not go to Louisiana. I don’t trust places called Alexandria. I will meet your meth absentee father in an unfinished meth concrete home in the ghetto of Inglewood. I will go to your scary mother’s garage and clean out her mess of shame, filth, and negligence. I will go on the trampoline with your son. I will go to the beach for your brother and baby mama to get them outside. I did a lot. 

 

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Men should be able to do everything on their own. They aren’t women. Is that why they are gay and hate women. Is that why are violent addicts and murdering rapists. Is that why they become pedophiles - because they want to rip off the smiles of the young and siphon their joy and suck out their youth to trap them so that they can be used for profit and other things. 

 

I hate aura farming more than solar panels. I think that’s stupid. I think those ones should be ended - game over. They think it’s a game - then turn it off. People pretend like the fucked up and weird shit that they do is normal and perfectly fine. It’s not. It’s definitely not. Those are flawed and at fault. The 7 Deadly Sins are a thing for people who can’t follow the 10 Commandments. My life is Jesus. Like anyone who’s jealous and weak and empty and limp and lifeless and basic and stupid and annoying and in the way could ever resonate. 

 

Not everyone can be successful. 

 

Not everyone can achieve things. 

 

That’s where religion comes into play, socially. 

 

That’s the bin for the lost, the needy, the abondoned, the unlucky, the unfortunate, the unsafe, the unplanned for, the unaccounted for, the desperate, the foolish, the forgotten, and so on. 

 

Religion is for everybody. You have to choose God. You have to choose Jesus. Jesus won’t force himself on you like a priest or a lay person of the congregation. Jesus isn’t sinfully mortal. 

 

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It’s convenient to have family as an excuse. It’s a temporary situation - family. The ones who can’t be around, the ones that must be culled do things that can’t be undone. 

 

Some gaps can’t be bridged. Some things don’t work out. Sometimes you don’t get a second chance. Some people don’t always get what they want or what they think they want. Facades only last for so long. People have gotten increasingly sloppy and stupid over time. Where are people getting the leeway to allow themselves time and energy for fanciful delusions and the space for desires. Why do all of the same people all have the same sense of humor or lack thereof - it’s stupid. Comedy isn’t natural. The Heyoka empath was the ancient comedian in the sacred Kachina dances for the balance of nature’s cycles and for social regulation reasons. 

 

Ego. 

 

Why would I ever want to model in Florida. Why would I waste my time. Like do you even follow my socials? Have you even been to my website? Have you ever listened to my podcast? Did you even read any of my writings? Are you even paying attention to my spiritual journey? 

 

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So, I’m keeping tally. Well, Cali is… So we’ve made it through 3 relationships and her 3 daddies which doesn’t even make them feel any time of way, two fiancees and fake rings with awkward propasals, one denial, and some other Florida Man Man Whore drama. I did yoga teacher training here and got certified as a Reiki Master. I have gone viral and made others famous and then they don’t repay me and try to attack and copy and stalk my life. We have made it through a murder, terrorism, assassination, homicide during the election year and are still unraveling the Bilderberg connection with the Canadian and Russian spies. Are all males in Canada strippers? 

 

Is that your shameful secret. 

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No white after Labor Day…